It's been a while since I've updated but I just wanted to say what's been going on as well as what's on my mind. Lately I'll admit I've not been too sociable, I'm trying to get myself together for this final year, planning my dissertation a bit as well as trying to get myself on the university American football team to add some spice to my life. I'm getting somewhat frustrated at myself for getting tied up with stress and random bouts of depression.

I'll admit I'm not too happy about how things are at the moment, but in due time things should even out once I can establish some stability again, it might take me a while so don't expect me to be too social. I'll still be contactable online and by phone but if I don't respond right away, don't get worked up. I'll probably be away or busy.

I really need to get life back to some form of routine in which I can balance out my academic, work and social lives which could take up to a month or so, I'll still be social online but those who know me locally may not see me as frequently, but I'll do what I can to be sociable.

I just need time to get things sussed out so I can keep stable

Well I'm finally back in Hull, landed in England on sunday morning completely knackered and hanged out with Rugbywolf at the station for a bit, we were both so exhausted we decided just to head back to Oxford, however, I left my backpack on the train from Heathrow and had to sprint a couple of times across the station to luckily retrieve it then catch my train.
Once I got to Oxford I had to help out Rugbywolf's family with a few things before I could get a quick 3 hours sleep. Had a small party there and slept a couple of hours before training it up to Brum to hang out with the epic Tempest, we talked about the con and he gave me some unexpected gifts, still pretty flattered and such.
Then another surprise came, my parents called me up and invited me to a Pet Shop Boys concert on that nod, I happily agreed and went back to Liverpool to watch before finally getting some kind of kip. It was an amazing gig though, glad I went, although I was disappointed they didn't play Oppurtunities or Flamboyant :P
Spent the next day and a half lounging at home before taking a late train back to Hull. I'll be honest and say I'd rather be back in the US right now but I'll be back there soon enough. It'll be good to see friends again, hopefully.

So far things are going pretty well, weather was shitty at first but has improved, yesterday I had myself a BBQ and headed up a mountain to watch the fireworks, it was a pretty nice sight but the fireworks seemed really small from up there, hope everyone's doing alright as well and I'll be back in at least a week, might be extending my trip to catch Dragonfire's birthday and stay here longer. ^^

Just set up a Gold account (Trial version) so I'll be on there for about a month I guess. My Gamertag's Tommah666 if you'd like to add me :3

Yesterday I headed to London to see Matt's parents with my mum and dad, that idea was initially unsettling in itself, plus it was weird to see them on my side of the Atlantic but once the evening started all was well. However, the real mindfuck occurred earlier in the day. As some of you may know a friend of mine drowned himself in London last year, I was reminded of this yesterday and today when Police and the fire brigade were searching the river by the apartment we were staying in. We think the body was found this morning, saw a white sheet draped over something on the riverbank, rather macabre a mindfuck. Also, not the only mindfuck. While we were wandering through London we found the pub I was meant to meet the friend's brother and talk things out, not been able to arrange a time though, was reminded I should really get round to tying that loose end.

Other than that mindfuck the trip went rather well, both couples got along well and my parents liked London, was good to be somewhere different as well. We also came back on a train called:


Made me giggle a bit X3

I'm down to one last assignment, once this out out the way and all my work is handed in tomorrow I'll be able to relax again. However, I really need to get cracking with this last assignment so if I'm not talkative online and such you know why now, if it's important send me a note or something D:

Hope you're all well~

I'm so screwed >:

Recently I managed to finally see a film called "Waltz With Bashir" when I was on the plane home from the states and I can't get it out of my head. It was just such a surreal and amazing film to watch and I don't know why it sticks in my head, it was just so well put together. It was also a format I've never seen before which added to its unique nature, an animated documentary of all things. Although it was short at 90 minutes, it was still so powerful. I'm going to make sure I pick up the DVD when I can.

It's a movie you'll have to see for yourself if you can, I understand it's not to everyone's tastes though.

Trailer below:

As of monday morning I'll be flying out to Florida until the 17th. It seems highly unlikely that I'll be online so I wish everyone the best and hope things'll remain stable while I'm gone, I miss you all already. >:

Be safe and take care everyone <3

As of recent my mood's been kinda shitty due to being back home and the family issues I mentioned earlier being dragged out, which show signs of taking longer, but expect it to add to my overall stress levels due to stakes being so high. Along with the pile of uni work I need to get through, I just can't get focused though. =/

My paranoia's also still rather bad, I get so tense around a lot of people and find it really hard to relax anymore, even around friends. =/ My medication may be a factor in this but to those who associate with me frequently, my apologies if I flip out on you.

All of this week I'm trying to keep myself busy by doing what essay work I can as well as various appointments, finance wise I don't have much on me so I'm only visiting friends locally when I can, if they're interested.

I feel shitty most of the time so all I ask of people is to bear with me for the time being, I really need this trip next week.

On another note, I may have a job in Hull when I get back.

Under the cut is a general post about some of the personal issues I'm going through at the present time, read it if you like.

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I'll admit I'm no expert in economics so my initial understanding of the financial crisis was somewhat vague. I found this on someone's FA journal today and it proved useful so I'm linking it here, it's a nice animated video which explains it all nice and easy. :3

http://crisisofcredit.com/

We've all got our down moments in this difficult time, be it a recession hitting you hard or a series of personal crises. This kinda boosted my mood today so I'm putting it here, it may not be much but I hope it helps.

Also, if anyone ever needs someone to vent at and stuff, feel free to drop me a line, I'm here to help as best I can. :3

Saw a neurologist yesterday, my driving ban's still only a year which is some relief but have to take pills nightly in order to prevent the risk of any other incidents. The trigger for such episodes can be stress and/or sleep deprivation. Which I was suffering from at the time of both incidents. So now I've just got to see how it all goes and if I don't get any bad side effects from the meds.

Found a letter from my doctor, apparently I have epileptiform dysfunction in the left side of the brain, therefore I've got to be on medication and probably now banned from driving for not 1 but 3 or more years. Fun stuff.

I was meant to be on a plane to come home last night but hanging out with Dragonfire and Dolphinspirit I started thinking of what free time I have until I need to be back and was getting depressed about leaving, so when I got to the airport I asked to change my flight. I'll now be coming home on monday morning and back home for monday evening. I know it's crazy but I don't wanna return to England yet.

And yes I have been studying and have alotted time for revision for those who are worrying X3

I tried doing some today in the city centre but for some reason I just seem to seize up, I can never find what I'd consider an ideal gift for anyone or someone has already beaten me to it. I'll keep mulling things over but I'm too late to order stuff online now. =/

To those I owe christmas presents, I'll do the best I can to get you something on time, if not I'll get it to you on the 27th/28th or when I return from my trip. Sorry I'm so useless at shopping for other people >.

Since people have been wondering what my plans are for the holidays and after I'm putting up this schedule as followed:

December 14th-23rd: In Hull finishing uni work and hanging out with locals, maybe visiting York on the 20th.
December 23rd: Heading down to Birmingham to see a good friend then off to an xmas party until the 24th.
December 24th-26th: Go back home and have xmas with my family.
December 27th-28th: Back in Hull to see as many people as I can.
December 29th-Jan 15th: In NY for a much needed holiday. :3

I've then got exams the following week and more work to get started on D: